what is your battle cry?
Ive been thinking lately of nothing and then thinking about a lot at the same time. One thought that has surfaced while I was driving to the sound of “Je te laisserai des mots” was of all that I’ve been through since giving my life to Jesus and all the victory and battle stories I have to tell. It makes me think of my present day self as a whole and then to ponder what I am and consist of. I came to the conclusion that today 08/04/25 I have a hard shell with a gentle spirit. I think I’m hard on the outside (more to myself than anyone) to protect the gentleness within me. When hurt or damaged the same gentleness inside turns into a scorching flame. It’ll burn others and myself in the process. That is why I like to regulate my flame, stoke it and keep it ablaze but doing precautious damage control.
I truly believe these thoughts have surfaced because I’m at a point in my life, where everything is silent. The season is still, again. Which I truly can’t complain I’ve come to love the stillness but what I love even more is the thoughts, experiences, and appreciation in the stillness. A reflection period. The Jewish people celebrate a feast called Sukkot in the Fall, in remembrance of their exodus from wandering in the wilderness for 40 years. I’d party for a week too if that was the case. Sukkot is all about reflection, a pause and time to remember what the Lord has done!
The Lord has brought me through so much, I know we all have our own stories to tell, but part of what assures me that the Lord is faithful is the remembrance of Him in the stillness(the calm before the storm). I’m not going to sugarcoat it, I’m not sure how I’ll pay next months bills, but the LORD DOES, I am so far yet so close to my goals AND I KNOW THAT I KNOW I HAVE THE MOST PEACE IN THE MOST UNCERTAIN TIME OF MY LIFE BECAUSE OF HIM AND THE CALL HE HAS PUT ON MY LIFE. Ive come to truly reali3 that your calling will cost comfort. That your dreams and visions won’t be all rainbows and sunshine’s, you’ll get those but not 24/7, because it’s the journey that builds the character to sustain the dream. It’s in the building and building on Christ as our firm foundation. The cornerstone that others reject is my firm foundation. I’m doing better and am further than the old me and if you knew me then, you know that’s a miracle. Truly do not discount small beginnings, the Lord loves small beginnings…ask Jesus about the manger.
I say all this because even though it’s still at the moment, it’s really not if you open the curtain to the spiritual realm. I believe I was called to a 2-day fast, well I had two demonic nightmares leading up to the start day of the fast, and then I got sick for a whole week, I kept processing healing scriptures over myself, and resting but I had to break the fast in order to be healthy about it. I say all this because the enemy is going to try EVERYTHING he can to stop you or to make you hate, doubt, or distract you from God’s love. God is love, everything He does is love. So when you are in the calm before the storm, just remind yourself who the winds and waves obey. All of creation, even angels and demons know the authority + identity of Christ and they fear Him. So when I know my Savior is “THAT GUY”, I can have peace for whatever He asks me to do. I’ve seen too much, I’ve seen Him move so much, do so much that I cannot believe the faithful God we call Father